1st time blogging..

i dunno y i feel like starting a blog.. mayb coz im nw single n no longer hv anyone to share my problems wit anymor?? n hv to share it wit a blog.. haha sound stupid duh!
it had been quite a while since i broke up wit him..
bt..i mis him.. every single lonely moment i had.. wic is EVERYNITE!!
Zzz...
wad is so grand bout him making me keep thinking of him..missing him..so much...
mayb dis is love.. ters no reason fo a person to fall in LOVE..
ters been quite a number of guys goin after me fo dis short period of time..
they were all gud..
they treat me well like no others..
bt dunno y,i couldnt fall fo them at all..NOT AT ALL!!

the 1st one,C. who is one of my schmate..he is famous over his 'playboy-attitute' tho.
bt i dun find him tat way since the day i noe him..mayb ppl in sch jz dun understand the feeling he had..
yes! he dumped gurls wthout giving any explanation..bt mayb he jz dunno hw to say it out.. wic is wrong oso la.. bt it doesnt mean tat he is play at all??..
he treated me realli gud..we spend time together.. studying.. n i found myself feeling happy n laughing non-stop when he is around.. we spend alot of time together..wad i mean alot is realli ALOT!! wic is every single day!!bt i dunno y..i jz cant accept him as a bf.. the feeling is nt ter.. the feeling towards a love one isnt ter towards him.. i realli dunno y.. mayb im still so nt ready fo any relationship after the break-down of the previous 4-yr-relationship..which is the one i give in the most n hurt me the deepest..
bt anyway, i miss the moment when C is around.. the laugher.. n the sweet things he did to me.. awh.. thanks fo wadever u had did for me..i appreciate it all..REALLI.. i realli do..

the 2nd one..wic is J. we already noe each other fo quite sum time, around 4 or 5 yrs..i guess... we isnt close at all.. den one day,i saw him in gurney,n we gave each other a hug,which is comman fo me to do it wit my frens outside..C was ter..i make him feel bad..i guess..C,sorry...i dun mean to do tat... days after bum wit J in gurney, he suddenly gave me a call..n i was shocked..fo no reason, he called..
the calling continues fo days..everyday!!...ok..i ignore n nvr tot of a thing..
one day,he say wanna meet up, since we haven been met up fo quite sum time..so,i was ok. den we met up in the caltex's mcd.. n we chat fo quite a long time..i again, i left C alone..zzz... sorry...
and then, J intro me to his frens n all..den ask me to hang out on the next day..i dunno y, bt i gave an OK immediately..when i reach hm,i felt bad.coz exam is around the corner..bt since i've promised him.k ler..i went..we went skating..which i dunno at all..he hold my hand,n we were skating round n round.den we went fo movie, wit other frens..n he hold my hand!!!Zzzz... i oso ignore la..leave it la.. mayb he dun mean anything.. den i went bac hm after the movie.. he continue to call me everyday..n the frens all tot tat im wit him..he came to my hse EVERYDAY,merely to find me n talk to me downstairs...zzz...until one day, he proposed. he asked me to b his gurl..i gave a realli weird feed bac..i was:"errr...har??realli mer?..wan mer?...dun wan la..." haha..i was so speechless...after i calm myself down,i told him tat i still cannot forget my ex..he sound so sad...haiz.. wad to do?... den he still continues to call me..zzz...i dunno wad to do la.. den i send a vr vr harsh msg to him.(i felt so la)... i told him tat i alwiz treat him as a fren..nth mor den tat..n i hope tat he will understand..n nt to waste time on me..n everything went smoothly.. things r settled nw..haha..hapi!!

...ter is mor fo me to talk bout..bt i dun hv the time nw..




sum how..i mis him...the secret him..which u will know one day.. haha!
nw, GET BAC TO WORK!!! 11 days left!! Zzzz...