once again..i cried...

it had been exactly 3 months since i broke up wit him... id alwiz tot tat ive let the memories b memories...bt actualli i haven...
i cried...once again..i cried fo him..after 3 months of dreamings...
darling..i miss u...i realli do..ive been lying to u n myself as well, bout my feelings fo u...i told tat im happier dis way..bt im nt at all..i need u so badly in my life...after u left..im living in a world of emptyness...nth seems to touched me..im 'heartless' since then..i doesnt understand the meaning of love anymor...my heart was cramped..as if ive lost my soul..
ive been telling myself, we werent meant to be together..we quarrell alot..even we were still together till the end..until the future..we will still face break ups...bt.. y?...y m i still wanting you back??...
you arent a gud guy to be wit fo future..bt y m i still loving you so much?!!!
y is love so beutiful yet hurtful??!!
of all time,y m i thinking of him at dis critical time of my stpm...?!!!
arggh!!!!

i miss him badly!!!!