him and another him...

i've been thinking n missing the 2 him(s) all day... wad m i doin?...y m i missing them??... i miss those days when we were so close n those days when they treat me well.. is dis wad meant by the fomous phrase "us, human tend to appreciate ppl when we had loose them"? bt i appreciate every moment i had wit them... haiz.. complicated..
one of the him actualli plan to cum to my hse today..coz of him, i didnt wanna go study wit my schmates(also coz im realli tired due to jz had a 2 hr slp last nite..) bt end up..he told me tat he couldnt make it..zzz..wad the hell?!! haiz..i shouldnt b mad la..nw he is jz a fren of mine..i couldnt care much,o expect much frm him like i used to..altho he told me tat he still loves me.. n of coz i still love him so VERY VERY MUCH!!..bt our attitude jz dun match at all..being frens like nw,is even better den we used to be...at least we doesnt quarrel anymor..i hv my life n his has his..n once in a while,we meet up n have sum chit chat all nite(wic we dont when we were couples bac then).. awh..kinda sweet oso la..well.. appreciate wad i hv nw...
n the next n most important thing is, the exam is getting so much nearer each day..!! bt y m i alwiz falling SICK!!?...haiz...altho' its jz a simple flu,bt.... hw m i suppose to concentrate wit the mucus blocking my respiration track?!! arggh!! forget it! take sum medication n GET BAC TO WORK!!! onli 9 days left!! n its the day!!